20 PHOTOS Behind the Scenes of BCL\'s Performance After Ashraf Sinclair\'s Departure, Full of Tears - Responding to Haters

Bunga Citra Lestari strengthens herself to perform again after the death of Ashraf Sinclair last February.

She had thought about giving up, but BCL decided to move forward even though her life is no longer complete.

When on stage, BCL often couldn't hold back her tears. But she had to strengthen herself because she was bound by a contract.

When performing in the same place as her memories with Ashraf a year ago, BCL couldn't hold back her sadness.

When in front of the stage, BCL still forced herself to smile. But behind the scenes, her face returned gloomy.

Now Noah is by BCL's side to accompany her wherever she goes. Because it is Noah who forces BCL to stay strong.

When receiving a brief for her performance, BCL's sadness is still deeply felt.

The manager and crew who accompany her during the show always provide strength for BCL to stay strong.

Fellow singers also strengthen BCL. Like Afgan and Vidi who performed together with BCL in Jakarta. They provide support with warm hugs.

BCL's facial expression cannot hide the pain in her heart. But she tries to stay strong even though her heart is broken.

Although Bumiaw's hands can make BCL's face look beautiful and fresh, but her facial expression when wearing makeup cannot lie. BCL is very sad.

After 4 months, BCL finally addresses the negative comments from netizens that she received after performing during her waiting period.

BCL is sad, because her decision to perform again is not solely about money. But there are other things that she has to consider, one of which is the responsibility for the contract.

With the support of family and close friends, BCL performs again and thanks the audience for the love given to her.

On stage, BCL often couldn't hold back her tears and her assistant quickly provided tissues to wipe the tears from her cheeks.

"Some people may not understand, all the processes I go through, all the decisions I make. It's okay, they don't have to. They just sometimes forget that I'm also a human, who can also feel sad and hurt when judged by many eyes," she said.

"I try to stand strong, holding hands with Noah. Continuing the rest of the day without you," said BCL.

Although she still cries on every performance, BCL still does it to fulfill her responsibilities.

When criticized by netizens, BCL misses the late Ashraf who always supported and believed in her.

"Dear love, my days will never be the same again, but I believe there is hope. Don't worry about me, I'll take care of myself, for you. I love you, always," BCL concluded on her YouTube channel.