Kim Sae Ron's Heartfelt Letter to Moonbin ASTRO in 2023 Revealed, Expresses Desire to Follow - Ends the Writing with 'Wait for Me'

"2023.04.27. I started writing a new diary. Bin, I miss you. I once wanted to end my life because everything felt so hard, but then I heard news about you. I know how terrifying and lonely that decision is more than anyone else, so I can't bring myself to ask you why. But you know what, that day I suddenly missed you in a strange way. I wanted to call you, but in the end, I couldn't. I regret it so much."

"Maybe I can't stop you, but maybe you'll postpone it for one more day. For me, as today passes, tomorrow will come. I go through each day with great difficulty. Are you like that too? Every day, every moment, I am so tempted to follow you. Don't feel lonely — I think I'm going through too much myself to be by your side and comfort you. If you feel lonely, just come to my dreams. I'll be by your side and listen to everything you want to say, just like you used to do for me."

"It's been so long since we met that you and Chanhee feel like family to me, always by my side, to the point where I might take it for granted. Then, ASTRO debuted and you received so much love, I felt relieved. I decided to postpone my decision to leave, even if just for a while, because I have to protect Sua (Moon Bin's younger sister) and the other members. Sanha said he would protect me. In the past, I was most worried about the maknae, but now he has grown into someone reliable. Seeing Jinwoo (Jinjin) and Myungjun (MJ) oppa trying to smile, seeing Dongmin (Cha Eunwoo) heartbroken, seeing Minhyuk (Rocky) looking so gloomy, makes me feel broken too."

"Why does it have to be you? I feel like I've already suffered enough from depression. It should have been me who left, not you. I want to mourn you, to be sad for you, and to talk about you as much as I want, but I'm afraid my presence will tarnish your departure. I'm still scared, even until now. My oppa, my friend, our Bin, we have worked so hard since we were little. And I think we are amazing because we have managed to achieve our dreams."

"I am very disappointed and fed up because I have not improved, with how the media keeps attacking me with unverified accusations, with how I still feel unsatisfied. This is the job I chose, so I have to take responsibility for it. I also have my family, who depend solely on me, and my fans. But surely you feel the same way too. I am not the only one who has felt pain since the first time I achieved my dream."

"I am not the only one who can't express anything and is rotting in solitude. You might also be trying to hold that pain day by day. We should be able to open up to each other, cry until our voices are hoarse, scream when we are struggling. But honestly, I still can't do that. I should gather you and the kids to do that. We don't want to worry each other, so we pretend to be strong and okay in front of each other, right?"

"Rest in peace, Bin. If this is the path you chose, wherever it may be, I believe it shines bright and is full of light. I respect all your choices and will always support you. I regret that I can't give you endless praise and can't hug you. I love you. Until we meet again. Wait for me. Your friend and younger sibling for 18 years, Kim Sae Ron."