The Story of Cerelia Raissa, Who Has Attempted Suicide Dozens of Times, Suffers from 5 Types of Mental Illness and Decides to Wear Hijab

Kapanlagi.com - Many people only see artists from the perspective of their success. However, behind all of that, there are many stories that not many people know about the lives of artists, like the one told by the FTV star Cerelia Raissa.

Since the age of 5, the 21-year-old artist has felt alone, sad, and always had the thought that she was never happy. When she was a bit older, Cerelia decided to visit a psychiatrist alone to consult about mental health.

1. Idap Mental Illness

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For months, she went back and forth to a psychiatrist, finally finding out that she has mental illness. There are 5 types, namely Bipolar Disorder, Anxiety Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), Binge Eating Disorder, and Anorexia Disorder.

"Finally, when I was in junior high school, I googled to find out what to do, and finally found a psychologist, then referred to a psychiatrist and initially diagnosed with just depression, but there were strange symptoms that needed to be observed for months, and after being observed for months, I was diagnosed with all of that," she said when met in the Senopati area, South Jakarta, on Sunday (12/1).

2. Attempted Suicide

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Due to her illness, Cerelia Raissa has even thought of attempting suicide thousands of times. However, she has only actually carried out the intention dozens of times, starting from when she was 5 years old.

"From hanging herself, jumping from buildings, cutting with a knife, stabbing her heart, to overdosing. I used to cut myself in elementary school because I felt too sad and wanted to replace emotional pain with physical pain. In middle school, I started again, stopped in high school because I was growing up, but it resurfaced when I was 18, 19, 20 due to fights with people, basically triggered by something," she said.

3. Thwarted by a Friend

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Cerelia Raissa's life has been saved and she is still alive today because her attempts are always thwarted by her friend just before the moment happens.

"Every time I want to commit suicide, thank God my friend always comes, always. I was already hanging myself, the rope was around my neck, my friend came into the room, I wanted to jump from the apartment balcony, my friend came. When the knife was already in my heart, just one push away, my friend came. So it seems like it's not yet my time to die," she explained.

4. Living the Party Life and Alcohol Addiction

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After growing up and becoming an artist, Cerelia Raissa fell into the pleasures of the world. She started drinking alcohol, which eventually led to her dependence on it. Every day, her life revolved around parties and getting drunk.

"I couldn't even sleep without drinking alcohol before, so I used to drink every day, party hard, every day was about drinking from night till morning, sleep until noon, hangover, eat, have dinner, and then drink until morning. It was like that every day, the forbidden things were indeed comfortable," she said.

5. Deciding to Quit and Wear Hijab

But Cerelia Raissa is grateful that she has left all of that behind now. She decided to wear hijab and leave her dark life, even though it wasn't easy because there were many risks to face since her job opportunities were definitely reduced.

"There were so many trials (after wearing hijab), for 3 months I was given many soap operas, big screen movies that I had dreamed of, and I rejected more than 5 soap operas because I really wanted to change," she said.

"I rearranged my efforts, with 1 TV movie it's not possible to meet all my needs, so I opened an online shop, I do part-time marketing, and I also have many endorsements coming in and offering endorsements for my online shop," she concluded.

(kpl/aal/DIM)