Chat Apology Not Responded by Mawa, Insanul Fahmi Draws Closer to God

Unfortunately, that good intention has not received a warm welcome. The peace message sent by Insanul was ignored and did not receive a response from Mawa, indicating that the hurt feelings and the legal process regarding the allegation of adultery still create a thick wall between them."No response," he said briefly, describing the cold response from the first wife.

Despite this, Insanul admitted that he does not want to dwell in disappointment. He chooses to continue making efforts to improve the relationship but balances it with a sense of sincerity, realizing that hoping for a human response is often painful.

"Keep trying, keep making efforts. On one side I make efforts, on the other side I am sincere so I don’t want to hope too much from humans, right? Well, what’s important is to make efforts while... while I just try to surrender to what is above," he said.

Furthermore, Insanul views all the complicated problems he is facing right now as God's destiny or qodarullah. He does not deny the existence of regret over the situation that has dragged many parties into it, but he is reluctant to keep blaming himself."Yes, qodarullah, this is all qodarullah, everything that has happened is destiny, so we can't just dwell on regret; there will definitely be some self-blame, but let's not prolong it," explained Insanul.

In this month of Ramadan, Insanul chooses to shift his focus to spiritual self-improvement. He fills his solitude with positive activities such as reading the Quran and remembering God, getting closer to the Creator as a source of strength in facing legal cases.

"More self-improvement is indeed more focused on because I have more time alone, I do more self-introspection. Just reading the Quran, praying a lot, doing dhikr, and fasting, I miss Allah too," he expressed.

Insanul continues to send prayers for Mawa. He hopes that his first wife's fasting will go smoothly and that the conflict regarding the adultery allegation can soon find a resolution for the sake of the children."Yes, for the fasting, it should be full, hopefully it goes well, please take care of the fasting, and may we be among those who are forgiven and successful, I also ask for forgiveness physically and spiritually, hopefully peace can come quickly for the children," he concluded.